Saturday, January 16, 2010

just for my MOM

Since anie said that I haven’t posted anything for quite a while so I’m cramming my head to type this post to post to this blog hehe

The person I love most in this world is someone I call EMAK


me n supermom

Yesterday (friday) late afternoon when I was just about to get home from work, I got a call from home…but I wasn’t able to answer the call. When I got home I called my lil sis to confirm with her that there was nothing wrong back at home. She said that mom haven’t called her that day n she wasn’t coming home this weekend cause she’ll be giving extra class to some of her student. So later I called my mom.

MOM answered my call as usual but the thing that was UNUSUAL was her tone…she sounded UNHAPPY n not as CHEERFUL as usual. I wondered if she wasn’t feeling well but she denied it. I asked her if there was something wrong but she also rebuffed it. When I kept pushing she ended confessing that she was a bit SAD when this weekend none of us went home except my bro…she was in the brink of TEARS which I could detect easily from her voice… silly me.. Should have known earlier since my lil sis said she wasn’t coming home dis weekend (read: ANAK MANJE tu slalu tiap2 weekend musti balik since dia ngaja kat perak jer haha). I talked n joked with her until she was the one saying…<okelah ju, mak nak stat ngajo budak2 lagi 2org ni ngaji ye..babai> then I know now she was FEELING UPBEAT AGAIN..ohyap..my mom n family call me ju @ kak yang ahah

My mom is the STRONGEST WOMAN I know in this planet… she’s even stronger than the so called iron lady dato maznah..yep seriously. But mom is very SENSITIVE..yap she’ll cry over a soap drama on the tv… I know that she had a difficult time growing up… in which could become a best-selling autobiography if I was to write them hehe…like other moms… she WORRIES ABOUT US CONSTANTLYI oways try to ensure that nothing was kept secret in her wonderful heart n feeling… mom is a very ACTIVE PERSONshe joined this n that…went here n there any time she could…mom is a SUPERB COOKthis is the reason I relentlessly turned up being extra chubby every time I went back home…duhh nothing could be done about this haha…mom LIKES HER FLOWER…our house have a collection of flowers even I don’t even know all of their names…mom FAVORITE COLOR IS PURPLE…I oways brought her something in purple…mom don’t eat anything that is SPICYso it is clear where I got my cravings for spicy foods…n most importantly MOM IS EVERYTHING TO ME.yep…I couldn’t even imagine life without mom…blank…dark..Empty…FULL STOP.

Last week I had to facilitate a module for part 2 students n they ended up becoming those I had facilitated back when they were freshies …so the 1st question I asked them was how it was so far??? From their answers… I could guess that some of them had BECOME LOSTBut they are only part 2 student...How come??? They still have a long journey up front before they could become a graduate of UiTM. So I told them that WHETHER THEY LIKED IT OR NOT THIS IS THE PATH THAT THEY HAVE TO GOthere’s no way they can turn back now and they HAVE TO MAKE IT WORK SOMEHOW…and THINGS WORTH DOING AT ALL IS DOING IT WELLor perhaps Excellently. They said sometimes…THINGS HAPPEN N MAKE THEM SWAY ON THAT PATH. I told them to think of something to make them stay strong, disciplined and work really hard along the way…something that remind them to STAY FOCUSED to stop messing around at times when they feel lost…money…Ferrari…awek…big company…was their answers to me… so I told them the thing that keep me worked hard n stayed on the path is the thought that WANTING TO MAKE MY MOM HAPPY ALL HER LIFEthat when I felt lazy or bad at times that thought KEEP ME GOING ON N WORKED EVEN HARDER… I do hope what I said could make a different in them after the session… (motto hep untuk dis program is walau sedikit tetap membantu) because EVERYONE LOVE THEIR MOM…don’t u???

So my lovely friends… whatever u do in ur life..Please remind urself what would ur mom FEELS, how she would REACT, will it make her PROUD, will it SHATTERS HER HEART, will it SHAME her if she knows about it… SYURGA ITU DI BAWAH TAPAK KAKI IBU


Sunday, January 10, 2010

7 January

‘We turn not older with years, but newer every day’

- Emily Dickinson-

pics aku yg excited for small simple gift with wholehearted thanks from my students

Many years back..this was the date I was born in this word (lol…I’ve unintentionally started my post like a preschoolers essay…lols). I’ve wanted to post this post to my blog since d 7th January but never had d convenience to do so… So it was my birthday… There’s a saying that goes…’A year older is a year wiser’ well…I do hope I’m wiser than my previous self. I did lots (YEP..i really mean it) of thinking lately…I’m trying to figure out things I’ve done all my life n what I’ve achieved so far..

Well.. I remembered I used to told my teacher that I someday wanted to become a lecturer (haha jangan tetipu..i only said that just coz I liked the sound of it..LECTURER kool right???) well ALLAH blessing… I’ve managed to achieve that ambition. So now I’ll have to figure out something else that I wanted to achieve in my life…

Study… I’m planning to further my study up to d next level..n hopefully before I reach 30 haha…

Parents…I’m hoping to send them to the holy MECCA, may ALLAH SWT bless this one because I really hope to make them as HAPPY as I can

Career wise … let just say that I’m required to finish some research this year haha..if not..ALLAH bless me =3… n I’ll be less mean to my students hahaha…lols

Bro n Sis… I’ll try to make them happy also… =3

A car… hopefully I’ll pass my driving test n able to get hold of a driving license n a decent car..if u noticed, I’ve placed a pics of my dream car on d sidebar…see nice eh??

Lovelife… maybe..just maybe (lol..lol..lol..lol) I’ll hook-up with some nice guy this year haha but if there’s a person who can present n GIVE me a brand new, shiny VW NEW BEETLE…I’ll surely want to marry him on d spot haha (read:perasan xhengat..adeke org nk bg ko eh haha)

So… there goes my checklist this year..hopefully all of them can be crossed same time, same date next year =3

In d mean time, read what others have to say about those who were born on 7th of JANUARY..us..capriconus

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Lucky Color:

Fuchsia

Personality Strengths:

Love, Compassion

Personality Weakness(es):

Weak-heartedness

Successful Career Path:

Fashion

Sense of Humor Style:

Friendly

Adjectives to Describe You:

daring, enterprising

Description:
A hip non-conformist who truly stands for his/her beliefs - you are out to make a difference in this world, and you have a realistic chance of success. You have always been self-driven and derive your inspiration from those close to you. Ambitious - and why shouldn't you be - the sky is the limit for you!


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2 - PENDAMAI

Dilahirkan sebagai diplomat.

Mereka selalu memikirkan dan peka terhadap keperluan dan perasaan orang lain sebelum mengambil kira dirinya sendiri.

Secara semulajadi sangat analitikal dan suka mengikut gerak hati.

Mereka tidak suka bersendirian.

Persahabatan adalah penting buat mereka dan berupaya mendorong mereka untuk berjaya di dalam hidup; tetapi mereka sanggup untuk bersendirian jika hubungan yang terjalin itu tidak serasi.

Golongan ini secara semulajadi adalah pemalu, mereka patut belajar untuk meningkatkan nilai kendiri (self esteem) dan meluahkan perasaan secara terbuka tanpa berselindung.

Golongan terkenal yang mempunyai nombor lahir 2: President Bill Clinton, Madonna, Whoppi Goldberg, Thomas Edison,Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart.

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> January 2nd ~ January 11th = Orange

You are responsible for your own actions, and you know how to treat people. You always have goals you look towards, and are competitive. When it comes to friendships, you find it hard to trust someone, but once you find the right friend, you trust them forever.